this song is my current obsession(:
ERIC CHURCH- SPRINGSTEEN
shes on the computer right now searching for jobs and houses(:
how perfect that would be if my entire family moved there… then i would get free room and board and could just work full time and save up for next year and then i wouldnt have to go into debt for college at all!!
keeping my fingers crossed!!(:
My night to cook?? Breakfast for dinner!!! Vanilla pancakes, turkey bacon, grits, and orange pineapple juice. I didn’t eat the pancakes cause of the gluten, but the rest was delicious(: (Taken with Instagram)
Starting applying to jobs in Utah today! I’m mostly looking in the Kanab/St. George/Cedar City area. Hopefully ill be able to find an EMT or other type of job in the medical field. ive honestly applied to probably like 25 jobs today haha.
Starting looking for housing too. im trying to find a cute little apartment. or I also have tons of family/friends there, so I’m not sure if ill just find someone with a big house and let me live in a room and pay cheap rent(: the second would probably be the most ideal.
the plan right now im thinking is that ill just move to utah and work and live there for a year, and then after that ill apply to all the decent nursing schools and then go from there!
i love being an adult and making all these life changing decisions… so exciting!!!(:
send good vibes my way people, i really hope this all goes through smoothly(:
I’m laying out on the pool deck gettin my daily dose of vitamin d and blasting country music. I can’t help but think about how I’m the happiest now than I’ve ever been. I started playing my guitar again(: I think that vacation was very well needed. since I’ve been back its like someone hit the reset button and now its like I’m looking at life through a new lens, and I can’t stop smiling(:
i was so scared to break off my engagement. i knew that i wanted to, but i was scared, because i didn’t know if i would come to regret it, and if i would eventually want him back.
now though, ive decided its the best decision ive ever made. im so much happier, and i feel like a better, more whole, an independent and free person now. im glad i didnt give into peer pressure and marry him like everyone told me to.
BECAUSE I AM THE HAPPIEST RIGHT NOW THAT I HAVE EVER BEEN!
and i know i wouldnt be that way if i were still planning the wedding now.
THE BACK STORY:
every summer me and my cousins from down in the valley would go up and spend our summers in utah. even though i only see those friends once a year, they mean so much more to me than any of my friends at home. there was this guy, and we always kind of liked each other. every summer when i went up we would hang out and it was always just sort of a teenage summer romance. so he left on a mission, and i hadnt seen him in about three years. i saw him last summer for only a little while, he helped to tow our car when we over heated driving up to go camping. it was kind of weird though because my boyfriend of a year came with me on the trip, and you could tell there was a lot of tension.
- plays guitar
- sings like an angel
- stands at a strong 6’ 4”
- has a rockin bod
- is a cowboy/total rodeo stud
- sweetest guy ive ever met
- chivalry is not dead with this one
- he always keeps me laughing
- has a southern accent/drawl
- is basically my total dream guy
SO THIS SUMMER:
one night we got his laptop and went and rented 21 jump street from the red box and took a blanket out on the soccer field and started watching the movie. about halfway through the sprinklers came on and scared the crap out of us. it was pretty hilarious. we ran and got all of our stuff out of the water, and then we started running through the sprinklers and started slow dancing right there, at 230 in the morning, freezing and soaking wet. it was the best night of my summer by far.
now im home, i miss him like crazy. im not sure whats going to happen. long distance never works, and ive never been willing to even consider it. but i might just give it a try with this one(:
have you ever been on a vacation where you just totally rethink who you are and where youre going with your life?
this past week:
- went running every single day
- met some new amazing people
- restarted a spark with an old love
- stuck to my diet
- laughed and smiled more than i have all summer
- i didnt want to come home
as a result:
- i realized i want to live a healthier lifestyle
- im going to quit smoking
- im going to stop sleeping around like a serial slut
- im gonna cut way back on drinking and partying
- im applying to different schools in utah, because i realized it would make me happier than what im doing right now
- im going to stop hanging out with people who bring me down
- i feel like a better and happier person.
(Source: groundedonthedaily, via serve-inspire-change)
(Source: gunmachine, via hollydrummondmusic)